I have a confession to make. The last couple weeks I have found myself avoiding my yoga mat. It has felt like an obligation - something I have to do. And quite frankly, I have been afraid of my mat. However, I know this experience. After practicing yoga for over 20 years, I notice a pattern. There is a power in getting quiet, to turning inward and listening to what arises - listening to your deep knowing. It can feel overwhelming and you can start to intellectualize what is going on - but ultimately the practice is about feeling, naming the sensations and honoring what arises. To become truthful with ourselves is often a daunting and uncomfortable task.
False Flats
This week a friend of mine reminded me of the “false flat” concept. Now, for those of you who are not runners or bikers this might be a new concept so I will explain it.
Imagine you are looking at a road in front of you, a flat road. You run or pedal as you would on a flat road but begin huffing and puffing. You immediately think, “huh, what is going on? Did I forget to hydrate? Did I not get enough sleep? I don’t understand - it usually isn’t this hard.” The whole while you keep pushing wondering what is wrong with you - what you did or did not do that makes this situation harder. And it actually gets harder the longer you go along - it is tougher and tougher to manage the same amount of effort. Only after you are done, when you check your gps or look behind you do you realize “that wasn’t flat, that was actually a hill.” The imperceptible grade to the road, making it look flat and free of obstruction is a “false flat.”